I should...

be in bed.
cleaning the house
working on Anna's website

and there are probably 10 other things I should be doing that I'm not.  Sigh.  
I've hated that I've left Anna's website unupdated for so long.
I've been working on it for a bit.  There are quite a few things to be updated.  
There are some new things I want to add.  There are tons of new pics to add, lol.  
I don't know how many people actually looked at it regularly but I like to have it anyways.  I'm really glad I'm working on it again.

I'm so excited its October.  Sooo many fun things to do this month, wahoo!  We've got plans for like every weekend and some weekdays too.  LOTS of picture taking opportunities too, wahoo!

My brothers have been living with my dad for about a week & 1/2 now.  So far, so good.  They are quickly forgetting that they were sure they'd want to come back every weekend, lol.  They were supposed to come over some for fall break but I think "obligations" to friends are gonna get in the way.  I miss them (and so does Anna) and I'd like to see them but its ok, I understand.  I'm just happy they are adjusting okay.

Oh and Shay (the oldest of the two) told me today that my Dad might have some little girlfriend.   Well, he says they are just friends but it would appear that she really likes him and he likes spending time with her too.  How cute is that?  It feels a little weird thinking of my Dad with another woman but at the same time, he totally deserves it.  They met in AA. He's still sober, too, which is awesome.  I have hope for him.  The only thing that really sucks, in my mind, is that to grad from AA they are supposed to apologize to everyone.  I don't feel like he owes me anything persay but causing me to scream, "please don't kill yourself Daddy" in the middle of the night over the phone while he was claiming to be taking excessive amounts of pills might be one of those things he should apologize for.  I hope he's doing it right and not just doing what he can get away with to look good to people.  

He HAS to be real to people and to himself, for once, if anything is going to be alright.  Sheesh.  I haven't really spoken to him in awhile, not really much at all since he tried to kill himself the last time. Well, I take that back.  There was that time that he tried to guilt me into talking and making up (like it works that way) with my mother so she could stop trying to say I was the reason she wasn't get ther surgery.   Not so I wouldn't have the guilt over my head but so that she would go get the surgery.  Whatever.  Its in the past right?  I just don't know what to say to him anymore.  My mother hasn't even tried speaking to me anymore.  I guess she gives up.  I'm fine with that.
The holidays are gonna be so strange this year, without my side of the family.  LOL, at least it will probably be without drama though!

S